This little light of mine, I'm gonna let it shine...

Monday, November 29, 2010

Spark and Flow

Spending time with extended family and friends over the long weekend has rejuvenated my sense of inner peace today.  I sit, now, with a heart shaped hot water bottle at my low back to soothe the remnants of a nasty round ligament cramp that I experienced earlier today.  I drastically cut short my usual morning walk with the dogs because the pain was so sharp and located on only one side, which indicated to me that it was not a contraction of any kind.  I walked slowly toward my home with this cramp, and felt really buoyed, really strong; breathing deeply and saying to myself and to Baby, "it's ok.  We'll go lay down and call Mif (our midwife) and find out what this is." Glimpses becoming less rare about who I'll be as a mother.  Can I just say? I'm in love with me as a mother and really, I kind of always have been. 

Friday, November 26, 2010

Thanksgiving 2010 Menu & Recipes

We had a small Thanksgiving party with a large amount of left-overs.  My mom teased me about making so much food and I had to admit it was no longer about the guests, but about the menu.  I was very excited to make my first Thanksgiving.  Hadj was a fantastic partner in cooking and all the food came out really well.

The gravy is absolutely worth the extra work and the Chocolate Ganache Tart is an oh my god instant classic.  In my opinion, the zest (I liked orange), shouldn't be optional as it provides the most wonderfully surprising, yet slight, citrus compliment in the heart of the crust.  Be warned, we used at least two pounds, maybe three, of butter, all told. Bon Appetit!

Pickled Beets
Wasabi Peas
Trail Mix of dates, dried apricots, soy nuts, dark chocolate chips


Brussel Sprout Hash with Carmelized Shallots  
(thanks to Ammie for introducing this months back)
Hazelnut and Apple Dressing  
(a combo of these two recipes)
Mashed Potatoes  
(with innovative tips from this recipe)
(the first recipe)
Homemade Apple-Plum Sauce  
from my wonderful neighbor
made from a recipe in an ancient Better Homes and Gardens Cookbook


Pinot Noir
Sauvignon Blanc

A hearty post feast thanks to all the amazing cooks who have inspired me and shared their wisdom!

Monday, November 22, 2010

Wildflower Prayers

I try to get my mind off of Hadj's four hour and counting 12.5 mile epic standstill on state route three coming home.  Ridiculous doesn't even cover it.  There's maybe four inches of snow.  All I can tell him, when he asks via text if I can get a scoop on the traffic ahead, is "give thanks you're not on the East side of the Sound where a web search shows up like this...

I don't even want to know what the difference between a red "!" and an orange one is.  He texts me now to tell me he's finally gotten a chance to pee and that there's a jack-knifed truck ahead.  "May be a few more hours."  I shake my head and feel for him.  Maybe, I wonder, I should try to feel hopeful and encouraging, or specifically timely and safely driven instead of terrible. 

But last night I had unseasonably warm dreams. 

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Before I Wrote this I Drew a Seal

I had a quietly empty feeling day. How can emptiness feel so weighty? I felt I was betraying myself today - somehow.  Not doing "the work" I deeply feel I need. It was a day of baby-ing.

So, what is "the work"?

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

A Wee Wednesday Update

Problem Wordings

Words color our view of the world. Used carelessly, they can perpetuate old prejudices and preserve old stereotypes without our analytic mind even realizing it. In an effort to avoid this, we need to work hard to create a terminology that will help remove the semantic barriers to open-mindedness and understanding between cultures. As the industrial world extends its reach to what were once hidden pockets of the globe, the job of refining our language becomes more important than ever.
Childbirth Wisdom, Judith Goldsmith

I just love the above passage.  I haven't gotten into the meat of this book yet, that is, the above excerpt is from her preface, but I'm pretty excited to learn about the traditional practices of women in other cultures as related to childbirth.  Should be v. interesting!!

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

How a Change in Schedule Led me to Jesus, Today

Before I launch this I want to give myself a few props.  I've been pretty good at staying positive on this here blog, and in my life, on a regular basis.  Things have changed rapidly and I've done my best to open up and let it all in without prejudice.  BUT... (kvetch alert) this morning has been kinda irritating.  Please stick with me as I blow off some steam and circle back around to warm fuzzies.